hope

The Good and Beautiful

Kalos Kai Agathos (καλὸς κἀγαθός)

 

That Greek word is as lovely as it sounds. It translates to “the singular balance of the good and the beautiful,” which I have learned while re-reading Eat Pray Love. The peculiar thing about re-reading is that you pay attention to different things every single time, and it just so happened that this phrase struck a chord in me, owing to my situation at the moment. (So I will use this phrase in this context and this usage, as the definitions are not limited to just this one. )

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Dragons Precede the Sunrise

In the most honest way I can state this, I find that it is utterly selfish for the self to be seeking attention through its most potent poison: depression and self-degradation. The almost automatic addiction and acceptance of this is truly bewildering, discriminating no one at any given point in time. Why do we befriend this self-destructive entity when all it is purposed to do is gnaw at you from the inside, utterly untraceable until only before your demise?

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Can I Stay Here Forever With You?

“Through forgotten convictions
Misplaced affections
I’m losing the sound of Your voice
I’ve been chasing after emptiness
Trying to tidy up this mess
I swear I’ve been down this road before
I want to get back to where it all began
When I would long for only You”

I don’t know how I managed to lose my way when I started out so strong this year. My only consolation for this is that there are bigger obstacles and newer challenges because I am leveling up. But it doesn’t negate the fact that I have been distracted and things have become superficial and ultimately routine. So many instances have I been patching it all up with futile efforts and seemingly helpful self-encouragement, but all of these things did not provide a lasting relief. I know and acknowledge the situation I have been in, and all I desire is to go back to Your heart.

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Amidst Chaos

I wish you’d stop thinking about the thorns when the flower is the only thing you should see.

On cold, somber days I hope you try to dance even without the music or the sun.

Stop, and sit down. The things that you’ve been dreaming of are materializing before your very eyes.

Let everything come together as you inhale the breeze of a new morning beckoning you to stop being afraid.

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Presence

In light of NSPW (National Suicide Prevention Week) and WSPD (World Suicide Prevention Day) which happens in September, here’s a little something for everybody.

To everyone I know, or don’t know who is struggling with depression, self-harm, and suicidal tendencies, I want you to know that we’re here and we’re fighting for you. I wish every bit of virtual encouragement I type out gets across with the same warmth and concern that I am gathering fuel from. Believe me when I say these things, never to just gain attention, but to ultimately get across firmly and with all the love in my capacity that you are loved and you are important. There will always be at least one person who is looking out for you, but they are too shy, too reluctant, too afraid. I’m afraid it’s on our part as well, and I apologize on behalf of that. 

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Find no fault in the eyes that gaze, 

used never to judge, but weep instead 

for those lost to their own blindness.

 

When the voices all scream in chorus

when they agree to nothing but hate, 

find that love’s whisper rises above and stays. 

 

Quietly you watch as the sunrise peeks, 

glowering over, but sending you a smile 

that says “Good morning, it’s a new day, child.” 

 

When you seem to find no one in the confines 

of your blood-stained corner, rise and look up: 

A hand reaches towards you, to wipe it off, it’s all over.

 

Endlessly, you should count, and grow weary

at the thought of a million and more hearts that 

see your soul, and love you, more than you’ll ever know.

 

 

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Here’s to fighting and winning battles against self-harm and suicide! God bless you guys, you know you will always find someone to help and give you hope and love.